I’m 5 weeks pregnant today. As I looked at the calendar this morning, I realized that each new pregnancy week will start on a Wednesday – the same day as my last pregnancy. That means I would have been 28 weeks today if I hadn’t miscarried in March. I still miss that baby every day. Being pregnant again certainly helps me feel a bit less sad than before, but a day hasn’t gone by where I haven’t thought about what happened.
On a more positive note, my treatments seem to be working and my lady parts are feeling much, much better! A couple more days of medication and then, hopefully, I will be completely infection-free!
At 5 weeks, I’m still not experiencing much in the way of symptoms. My boobs are a bit tender and veiny, but not full-on sore or huge. I’ve had some minor nausea the last couple of evenings, but nothing to write home about. I’m pretty tired, but that could be the result of parenting an active two-year-old, rather than pregnancy-induced fatigue.
The other night D asked me what we were going to call this baby. He wasn’t asking what the baby’s name would eventually be, but what we would be calling the baby during its gestation. For my past two pregnancies, we’ve nicknamed our little embryos right from the beginning.
Littleman was called “Tadpole”. I think that was due to one of the first descriptions we read about what our “baby” looked like at the time. Looking back, it was kind of a gross name, but, nevertheless, we called him that right up until the moment he was born.
We named our second baby “Poppy” (as in poppy seed) because that was size of the baby at the time we found out we were expecting. That name only lasted a short while because Littleman mis-heard us one day and said “Puppet?” From that moment on, up until our loss, that baby was “Puppet.”
So, what’s this baby’s name? This little one – our rainbow – is called “Bo.”
Does everyone else nickname their offspring while they’re still in the womb? I guess, for us, it just always felt right to be able to call our babies something other than “it”, even before we knew the sex or had any names picked out.