I’ve always been a spotter. At least, I’ve spotted ever since I went off birth control in 2009. I can’t remember if I spotted much prior to going on birth control many, many years ago. I guess it wasn’t really something I would have cared about back then.
When we first started trying to conceive Littleman in 2009, I experienced some light brown spotting before my period was due. I remember googling something like “spotting before period while trying to conceive.” The results were my first introduction to the phenomenon known as implantation bleeding. I remember thinking to myself, “this is it! We did it! I’m pregnant for sure!”
Of course, a couple of days later, my period showed up. This went on for months and months. And, although I knew the spotting was likely just that – spotting – I never really gave up on the hope that it would turn out to mean implantation had occurred.
When we hit our fourteenth month of TTC, I spent my two week wait in the usual way. Waiting, hoping, googling. All of a sudden, I realized that I hadn’t spotted. When I finally gave in and took a test around 14dpo, I think I already kind of knew. I didn’t have one speck of spotting and I got my BFP! So, at that point, I decided that this whole implantation bleeding thing was a myth.
Fast forward to 2012 and TTC baby #2. As usual, the spotting occurred regularly before my periods. During some cycles it even happened for as many as 6-8 days before my period arrived. The spotting was always such a disappointment. It dashed my hopes each month because I knew right away that it meant I wasn’t pregnant. On the positive side, it saved me some money on HPTs. No point in testing early when I was spotting.
In December 2012, I wasn’t taking my temperature or using OPKs. But I did monitor my CM and mark down my period. I had some light spotting in the second half of my cycle. I remember it being light pinky mucus and it happened a couple of times when I wiped over a span of two days. Since I was pretty certain we had missed most of my fertile window due to holidays, sickness and D’s work schedule, I figured this was my usual pre-period spotting.
Turns out, I was wrong. The spotting disappeared all together so I gave into my temptation to test. BFP! Looking back, based on our intercourse timing, I can guess that the spotting happened around 8-9dpo. Implantation bleeding? Perhaps. Something else? Maybe.
Now that I’m well into the TWW, I’m trying to mentally prepare myself for the inevitable internal debate: implantation bleeding vs. pre-period spotting. UGH.